Monday, June 13, 2011


I have been feeling a calling to speak.  I'm not sure what I would ever speak about though.  It is just a feeling that is welling up within me.  I am awaiting God's plan here and hoping and praying that he will make this clear to me.

I attended church yesterday where I was a reader for the early service and then I attended the pastor's Sunday School class.  It was Pentecost Sunday, by the way.  Much was said about the Spirit during worship and Sunday School.  The class is reading the book Radical by David Platt.  I missed the first week but quickly picked up a book and followed along.  One of the things that was discussed was that if you are attending a seminary exploratory weekend at a PCUSA seminary, you will be told that if you think you have a gift for ministry, you are in the wrong place.  The belief is that God equips those who he calls.  He does not call those who are equipped.  Radical thinking there for me.  What does that mean in regards to the call I am feeling?  I certainly don't feel equipped to stand before anyone as an "expert".

Then tonight, I attended the women's Bible study.  I missed last week due to our busy schedule.  The study is from Beth Moore and it is on Revelations.  I gathered that we are charged to pray each day for Christ's revelation to us.  Then the first thing that was said in the video was to get ready and she quoted from Psalms 81:10

I am the LORD your God,

who brought you up out of Egypt.
Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.

Oh my!  Is that my first revelation?  Open wide your mouth and I will fill it!!!

Needless to say, I am looking forward to see where this study goes this summer.  I am trying to be patient for Christ's revelations.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Where do I even begin?

So much has been happening or not happening as the case may be!  I have been sick for most of May.  I attribute my illness to the power outage which caused my allergies to kick into high gear.  We spent so much time outside during the blackout that my allergies really got a good start without me realizing what was happening.  I wound up with bronchitis and it is really only this week that I have begun to feel that I have shaken it.  I'm taking a generic Claritin everyday but still really fighting the allergy portion.  At least now, I think there is light at the end of the tunnel.

The kids have finished school.  It was a rocky year for two of them.  Though they all finished with passing grades.  Summer is going to be different.  We have not joined our neighborhood pool this summer.  There are other activities that the kids would like to do and so we will be trying to put our funds in those places instead.

I have reconnected with a college friend who was also in our wedding.  She has finally joined facebook and I am now having a midlife crisis!  She looks so gorgeous in her photos!  She looks much younger than I expected.  Now I think I am going to have to do something to improve myself.  My DH is sweet and encouraging.  He loves me no matter what but I want to be better!  For him and for myself and our children!  Overwhelming is how the project seems right now.

In the midst of all this, I have been working on my relationship with my heavenly Father.  It had been neglected but I am working on tending it daily now.  I'm looking forward to starting a new Bible study this coming Monday night too.  Any prayers for wisdom and support are greatly appreciated.